Thursday, April 24, 2014


God is being more and more clear to me and my family that we have a trust issue. It seems that we see His hand in our past with no problem. We trust His hand for our future knowing that He has promised that one day we will be with Him because of the blood of Christ and how He covers our sin for eternity.

So there’s this problem though.

What about today?

A man and his wife walked into the clothes closet the other day. He had lost his job and they were trying to get a few things to help end meet until he could secure something else. They have 3 kids and they were optimistic that something would come through soon. They just needed a little help.

The man noticed another shopper pick up a pair of tennis shoes. He came to me.

“Do you have more of those?  I need a size 11.”

I knew that we had extra shoes, but I also knew we only had a couple of pair of tennis shoes.

“Sir, I can look for you. I am just not going to be able to promise. We have been low on shoes lately. Especially for men.”  I was doubting. There are times that we can’t help and I begin to not want to give much hope so that they are not so disappointed.

He replied, “Ok. Would you mind looking?”

I walk to the back where the extra shoes are. Just as I thought there were only 2 pair of tennis shoes. One pair looked almost brand new. I pick it up.

It’s a size 11.

“REALLY??! God HOW DO YOU DO THIS?” I ask, out loud to an empty room.

I walk back to the front of the store and the man and his wife are watching for me. They both begin to smile.

Why did I doubt? Why can’t I wake up everyday with the knowledge that God WANTS to provide for me TODAY? Why do I not trust that things that may not work out just the way I think they should couldn’t work out another way?

You know… that man didn’t ask for a size 11 in a Nike. He just asked for a size 11.

I am not saying that we should not ask and be specific when we approach God about our daily lives. It’s just that maybe we could come to Him trusting that His way will be best.

And maybe we could trust that TODAY He is the same God that provided for us yesterday, and He’s the same God that holds our future securely in His hands.

I’ve just questioned.. am I a follower of Christ TODAY? In the present? In this moment and I worrying about what will happen or am I resting in knowing that His sovereign hand that has carried me is carrying me now?

Why do I quickly forget that He provided a size 11 shoe for a man that has no job 15 minutes ago, and worry that He won’t take care of me?

I don’t know. It’s just that I make this harder than it has to be. Obedience would be so much easier than worry.

“But if God so clothes the grass of the field., which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?” Matthew 6:30

True. So True.

Monday, April 14, 2014


I got a text. It was from a friend of mine that works at the church.
“Hey, are you busy?”

The clothes closet was open and it’s always an ebb and flow…

“We are a little busy.” I reply.

She helps put together items for some houses that are used for missionaries that come back to the US. People had donated silverware and there was too much. She wanted to know if I could run up to the church office to get it. We don’t usually accept that type of thing… only clothes, but it was good to know.

I couldn’t go right then, but I tell her we will get it soon.

I put my phone in my back pocket.

The next shopper, with arms full of clothes walks up. She has a scar on her face. 

My heart starts. “She’s been abused.”

She lays her items on the counter and I smile at her and say, “Did you find some things?”

Her eyes get glassy with tears.

“Yes.” That was all she could say. A tear falls.

“What’s wrong, honey?” I ask.

“Well, I am at the battered women’s shelter. You know, when you flee you just go with the clothes on your back? So I am trying to piece it together again.”

Another tear.

“So now I am out trying to get some clothes and other things. I think they are going to help me get into a house but I have nothing. I mean, I have no silverware, no blankets…”

I stop her.

“Wait. What did you say?”

I pull my phone out of my pocket. Of all the things that this lady would mention that she needs she mentions SILVERWARE??

I call my friend who, not five minutes before, had texted me.

I tell her and she just says, “I’ll  meet you. Come get it.”

When I arrive my friend is in the hallway with not only silverware, but a silverware holder, cleaning supplies, a night gown, a laundry basket, some trial sized toiletry items and some blankets.

We just stand there for a second and look at each other.

She laughs. “Do you know this has been in my office for a few weeks? Why did I decide to text you today? I had it under my desk and it fell out on me. I just got aggravated and someone picked on me about having a mess so I decided to text you right then!! Are you kidding me? This woman really said silverware?”

We load it on a cart and I push it down to the clothes closet. When I walk in another helper is praying with her. We walk to the parking lot and the woman sees the cart. She is just overwhelmed.

“Ma’am we see God do this so often. I did not bring one bit of this to the church! You need to know that He knows your EVERY need… even the need of silverware.. and He is going to provide.”

She shakes her head. “Well, I recently rededicated my life to Him. I have not lived like I should. I don’t deserve this.”

I reply, while holding her hand, “None of us deserve His grace. You have to live for Him! He’s pursuing you!!”

She is smiling now. She takes her things to the car that waits for her because she  has ridden to the clothes closet with others that are in the same situation. Relying on each other. Trying to make it through.

I am not sure why this happens, but we all deal with lack of faith in the here and now.

If we know Christ, it’s easy to say that we know that “one day” we will be with Him and “one day” He will fulfill His promises. We know that we have hope for eternity, but what about TODAY? Why do we not trust that TODAY He will provide for our needs? Why do we not see that TODAY is the day of salvation and that TODAY He is the same God that provides for tomorrow or the future? Why do we not pray for the little things that we think are small and insignificant? He is GOD! Nothing is impossible for Him.

Moses prayed and the Red Sea opened up and His people walked right through! Moses didn’t “Pre-pray” for that! He stood at the water and prayed and God did it! THAT day.

It’s almost like we have the faith for our future with God, and we see His hand in our past, but somehow He’s just not able to handle our present.

I think we forget. He’s here. He is the GREAT I AM! Not “I was” or “I will be”.  I AM.

He can provide even the smallest detail. The thing that is essential to make it through today… He can make it happen. That’s why we have a daily walk and a daily (well, lately it’s been hourly and even minute by minute) prayer time. Because He wants to meet us, and provide for our needs in the everyday. While it’s still called today…

Even silverware.