God is being more and more clear to me and my family that we have a trust issue. It seems that we see His hand in our past with no problem. We trust His hand for our future knowing that He has promised that one day we will be with Him because of the blood of Christ and how He covers our sin for eternity.
So there’s this problem though.
What about today?
A man and his wife walked into the clothes closet the other day. He had lost his job and they were trying to get a few things to help end meet until he could secure something else. They have 3 kids and they were optimistic that something would come through soon. They just needed a little help.
The man noticed another shopper pick up a pair of tennis shoes. He came to me.
“Do you have more of those? I need a size 11.”
I knew that we had extra shoes, but I also knew we only had a couple of pair of tennis shoes.
“Sir, I can look for you. I am just not going to be able to promise. We have been low on shoes lately. Especially for men.” I was doubting. There are times that we can’t help and I begin to not want to give much hope so that they are not so disappointed.
He replied, “Ok. Would you mind looking?”
I walk to the back where the extra shoes are. Just as I thought there were only 2 pair of tennis shoes. One pair looked almost brand new. I pick it up.
It’s a size 11.
“REALLY??! God HOW DO YOU DO THIS?” I ask, out loud to an empty room.
I walk back to the front of the store and the man and his wife are watching for me. They both begin to smile.
Why did I doubt? Why can’t I wake up everyday with the knowledge that God WANTS to provide for me TODAY? Why do I not trust that things that may not work out just the way I think they should couldn’t work out another way?
You know… that man didn’t ask for a size 11 in a Nike. He just asked for a size 11.
I am not saying that we should not ask and be specific when we approach God about our daily lives. It’s just that maybe we could come to Him trusting that His way will be best.
And maybe we could trust that TODAY He is the same God that provided for us yesterday, and He’s the same God that holds our future securely in His hands.
I’ve just questioned.. am I a follower of Christ TODAY? In the present? In this moment and I worrying about what will happen or am I resting in knowing that His sovereign hand that has carried me is carrying me now?
Why do I quickly forget that He provided a size 11 shoe for a man that has no job 15 minutes ago, and worry that He won’t take care of me?
I don’t know. It’s just that I make this harder than it has to be. Obedience would be so much easier than worry.
“But if God so clothes the grass of the field., which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will He not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?” Matthew 6:30
True. So True.