Sometimes I would like to just run away and HIDE!
Wouldn't you?
Sometimes when there are a million things to do, the house is a mess and your family is in disarray it is truly overwhelming and makes me think..."wonder where I could HIDE so no one will find me? Wouldn't it be nice to just disappear for a few days?"
Unfortunately, it's not always an option to just check out. No matter how hard life gets and no matter how much I would like to RUN as hard as I can in another direction that isn't what God has called me to. AND while vacations are fun and relaxing they do come to an end and reality is still back at home waiting for me.
Well, I have figured it out. I have to hide in the shadows.
The people of Israel were being defiant against Jesus. They were unsettled and in turmoil about Him. They were killing Christians and not living the way that God desired for them to live. Jesus said, "how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing! Look, your house is left to you desolate." Luke 13:34b-35a
Perhaps I do not live in TOTAL defiance against Jesus. I am still a sinner.
Perhaps I do not kill other Christians. I do not always live the way that God desires for me to live.
BUT I do know this. To be gathered under His wings of protection and love is where I want to WILLINGLY go!
I know that I am going to mess up. It's true that sometimes when I am overwhelmed it's because I have over scheduled myself and it's my own fault. It's not fair to take it out on my husband or my daughter when my house is a wreck when I know that I have not made the time to do my job! (Yes, it's their job to help, but ultimately my role is to care for my home... and I WANT to!)
And I know it is true that others bring stresses into my life. Others are not going to always accomodate me and make me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. I am not always going to agree with everyone and that can be unsettling sometimes. I can't run from it... it's not in my nature to just allow things to go unsaid or feelings to just hurt when something can be resolved. And yet those situations truly make me WANT to just run and hide.
I want to be a little girl that runs and hides in the shadows of her Daddy's legs and find comfort for a while. I want Him to whisper that He's still in control and that I need not worry because He's taking care of me. I want Him to say "that old world is defeated so you just don't worry my darling child." I am learning to run to Him and rest at His feet. And I can hear those words if I take the time to open HIS!
Psalm 17:8 "Keep me as the apple of your eye; hide me in the shadow of your wings."
Psalm 16:1 "Keep me safe, O God, for in you I take refuge."
Psalm 16:8 "I have set the Lord always before me. Because He is at my right hand I will not be shaken."
It would be so nice to disappear for a while, but what beauty He brings when we rest beneath Him. Watching Him work. Waiting on Him and trusting His promises. It's not easy to rest sometimes. It's not easy to wait. It's not easy to stay calm in the trials that come our way. 
But I know that He loves me. And I know that He's working. And I love my Daddy.
Psalm 51:10 "Create in me a pure heart O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me."
Comments
Thank you for the beautiful reminder that when I want to run and hide, it should be to be with my "Daddy".
It's funny that you mentioned Him as Daddy, because on Sunday during prayers at church, the young man praying for almost 10 or 15 minutes only referred to Him as "Dad" and not Father. He talked about how Dad comes closest to "Abba Father". I would like to get more used to referring to the Lord in this way.
Thank you,
Susan