Saturday, July 18, 2009

And Then My Mouth Fell Open

Last night while having dinner with my family my husband and child were playing at the table. If she tried to reach for something he would act like he was going to bite her arm or tickle her or something... you know, dad-ish!

We were eating at Chili's so I wasn't really paying attention to them. I was looking at the menu quietly... FINALLY a second where someone else could answer her questions and deal with the kid. I mean, I noticed that they were playing around and laughing, but wasn't paying attention to what all they were doing.

Our dinner came, we ate, we talked, we planned our course of action for the weekend (because we are going to the beach tomorrow with his mom and dad!! YAY!), and we just sort of chilled. WELL, Chili's is having a deal where you order an appetizer, 2 meals and a dessert for $20 and we had a $25 gift card! SWEET! So we were excited about the dessert that was on the way.

They finally bring the dessert, my daughter grabs her spoon at the same time my husband does and he sort of fights her for the first bite. As they are sort of play fighting my daughter says to my husband, "Bite me!"

I looked up from my napkin that I was putting in my lap! WHAT?! DID SHE SAY "BITE ME"? My mouth fell open and my eyes got as big as saucers! At first it didn't dawn on my husband as to why I was looking at him like that... and then it hit him. Neither of us said a word because who wants an 8 year old to catch on that what she just said might really mean something to the grown ups?? He just burst out laughing! "No! Honey!! A little while ago I was pretending to bite her if she reached across me!! That's why she said that!" More laughter... tears now... "Oh! You have GOT to blog about this one!"

Uh. yea!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009


So I am not sure why, but today I have had ZERO patience. I didn't start out as Mommy Dearest... I have just seemed to evolve into her over the course of the day. I live with the same 8 year old that I had yesterday so why are the things that she's doing today... which are not a whole lot different from the things she did yesterday... literally causing my head to spin around like someone from a horror flick?

I tried to take her beach and school shopping a little today. While we were there she asked me 1.5 million questions (most of them over and over again), layed in the floor under the clothes where others were trying to shop, and asked me "why" 1000 times. I am sure the other shoppers were wondering who that mad woman was that was dragging her kid to the car by her arm... the one that was asking, "Mom, am I gonna get a spankin'? Am I mom?" .... and yet I could have cared less.


AND what a witness I've been today. Just showing Jesus to others... and especially my child. Yes, ESPECIALLY her.

And she got zero clothes by the way. Zero.

Yep. Mom of the Year. That's me. :) GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!
Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Why, God?

Last week a friend that I have known for over 15 years lost her step-dad to a sudden stroke that they determined was linked to brain and lung cancer. Up until a few weeks ago they knew nothing of the cancer. It's really hard to see your friend hurt like that and to have no answers as to why!

A few months ago a dear lady that lives across the street from my in-laws just finished doing yard work with her husband. He sat down on a bench in the yard, had a massive heart attack and died a few days later. They are faithful members of our church and a precious family. I saw her just the other day and you just wonder how she's putting one foot in front of the other?

Devastating. It's the only way that you can describe the loss of someone that you love so much. It takes the wind right out of you and you can't believe that your life has been altered in such a drastic way in just a matter or minutes.

Today I was reading my Bible. (I love my Bible. I love how God speaks and how He's always speaking.) I read this scripture that says, "As you do not know that path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things."  Ecc. 11:5

God is such a mystery! The "why's" and the "how's" and the "when's" sometimes go unanswered, and those of us that are left are sometimes just trying to grasp for some sort of word of encouragement or place of comfort.

I remember, when I was younger, my dad not allowing me to go to a party that "all the other kids were going to!!" I was so mad at him!!! I cried and cried and begged and begged. He still said no. Later that night a very popular boy from our high school... good looking, soccer star, fun, easy going... was killed in a car accident just after he left the party. He was drunk and his friends could do nothing to save him.

I DID NOT understand why my dad had disappointed me so. I didn't understand why he wanted me to miss out on the fun. And now, looking back, I realize that his wisdom was so much greater than mine.

Missing a party in no WAY compares to missing a loved one. But our Heavenly Father has so much wisdom. He does allow things in our lives that hurt very much. He also offers us peace in the storm, the ability to lay our burdens before Him, and a promise to NEVER leave us or forsake us.

The loss of these two sweet and precious men really has me thinking. I think about my own aging parents and how, when their time comes, I may just stop breathing myself. I think about the people who don't know Jesus and it's no wonder the state of our country when it comes to depression, loss of hope and confusion when they loose a loved one. I just pray that as I move forward that I will be more faithful to share Jesus with those around me so that they can know His peace.

Lord, I pray for these sweet families that have lost these precious dads. Lord, it's really hard to understand the reason that you allow hurtful things, but I praise You that You are in control. Thank you for loving us and for having the wisdom that we so often lack. Please be their peace today. Carry them through those moments that come when they just want to scream from the pain and emptiness that comes with losing someone you love. Speak to their lives in a fresh new way through this and help them to seek you with all that they have. I love you Jesus! Amen.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009


It has been a while since I put some thoughts into writing... well, except for journaling a little here and there. The last few days have gotten me thinking about why I have felt empty inside. I guess I get busy... well, let me explain and maybe you can relate.

It's just that I sometimes get so busy running from here to there that I sometimes find myself lonely. Run to the store. Run home. Run to therapy. Run to Little Gym. Run to the library and to the cleaners and the bank. Run here.. run there... and I am in the car with my 8 year old and it just sometimes hits me that I have not made one effort to call a friend or pray for someone that I love or spend enough time in God's word and I find myself lonely and sometimes empty inside.

Don't get me wrong. I am an on-the-go-stay-at-home-mom. I enjoy getting out and going places. When I stay home too long I just get bored. Of course laundry HAS to be done and the bathroom can't be dirty forever so I have to stay home some, but mainly I like to go, go, go. Thing is.. I get into my own world and I forget that there are people that I need to spend time with. They give me perspective. They make me think and they make me laugh.

Just today in my quiet time God reminded me that there is a time for everything! Ecclesiastes 3 tells us that "there is a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh...." I sometimes get too caught up in what I am doing and I don't take the time to reach out to others. There needs to be a time for that.

God also reminded me that He is always here. I KNOW! I should know that!! But it's just that I sometimes get into this "why have you moved away from me?" whiney mode. He didn't move!!! I did!! I moved so much by running here and there that I have not lingered in His word. I have not spent time really praying. YES! I pray and I have a quiet time, but it's not the same as when I really listen and pray and dig!!

Anyway, God used today to help me regain some perspective. I really needed it and I really need to listen more. Linger more. You know.... stop running so much in my mind and body that I miss His blessing through His word and through others. How about you?
Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Summer Fun

We have been too busy to blog and here's proof! Not that you need it because I know that you are just as busy and just as crazy as we are, but I will share anyway!! :)

Just after school was out we had a little spring dance recital.. and when I say little I mean "little"! As in 3 little girls in their little tutu's doing 2 little dances and it lasted 30 little minutes. Little.


But little is fine with me and her daddy! We enjoyed our 30 minute show instead of the typical 5 hour one where you watch everyone else and their sister dance until yours gets to come on stage for 5 minutes. I'm just sayin'... it was nice.


Were they EVER doing the same thing at the same time? I think not. It was cute though.. and we are all about some cuteness!!

Next we got a major hair cut! (and we are ALWAYS holding the kitty. ALWAYS. Wears me and the cat completely out!)


Then we about killed ourselves VBS week, but it was awesome and she made some steps towards being a Christian!! WOO!! HOO!!

Here's our girl singing on the BOOMERANG EXPRESS!


Then we've played... seen friends... played... swam... played... cleaned house... grocery shopped... played some more and been a little lazy.

Here she is with our friends' kids (and my hyperlink has stopped working! nice.) at the 4th of July....030

Basically, since school is out it has been all about entertaining the kid. Can't tell can you? Hopefully daddy and I will get some fun time too... I need to plan that! :)

Hope your summer is great!