Have you ever seen a sink hole? Have you ever thought about how serious of a situation that is where entire buildings can just disappear into this hole in the ground? The ground just separates and perfectly sound buildings and cars are just swallowed by this hole. It's really an amazing thing when you see the devastation that one hole can cause!
Lately, I've been looking around at, and listening to, people.
If we really listen to the needs of the people around us they are all really very similar in nature. Many of us have health needs. We have very serious family concerns. We have financial needs that are overwhelming. We are tired and we are unsatisfied. We are all really very similar... with this hole in our hearts that never seem to be filled.
There are times that we feel this huge emptiness that seems nothing can fill. Family situations get harder. Friends feel distant. Work seems impossible. It just seems that nothing is working, and the hole is swallowing our very being.
Sometimes the hole gets smaller. We patch things up with our families. We get a new job. We begin to feel rested and friends are around more often. We laugh. But in the still of the night... or the quiet of the morning... we can still feel the hole.
The thing about this hole, no matter how big WE may feel it is, is that it's a GOD SIZED hole.
Most of the time we are so self consumed that we really don't stop and think just how BIG God really is.
He's the "Creator of the UNIVERSE" BIG.
He's "Able to move mountains" BIG.
He's "Greater than the number of stars in the SKY" BIG.
And He knows the number of hairs on my head... BIG!
We get so busy trying to fill our own emptiness that we don't really stop to realize that maybe we are going about this whole "being fulfilled" thing in the wrong way. I think that, just like the sink hole, if we continue to ignore them, these God sized holes can be extremely dangerous. We start to try to fill it with things that can cause irreparable damage.
Being so busy that I have no time for anything normal.
We try many self-destructive behaviors that never truly satisfy so we strive and strive for more... only to find the hole is still there, and now we have destroyed our minds, families and the lives of others. There HAS to be a solution.
One thing that engineers do when they begin to look at a sink hole is they begin to look at the areas of weakness around the hole. They have to get an idea of how the hole started so that they can begin to repair it and get things back in order.
Our holes started when we were created. God allowed this GOD SIZED HOLE in each of us so that we would recognize that we will never survive this world without Him. It's like our hearts are divided by this hole and He purposefully put that division there so that HE could fill it.
Read what Ezekiel 11:19-21 says," I will give them an undivided heart and put a new spirit in them; I will remove from them their heart of stone and give them a heart of flesh. Then they will follow my decrees and be careful to keep my laws. But as for those whose hearts are devoted to their vile images and detestable idols, I will bring down on their heads what they have done, declares the Sovereign Lord."
God knows that our hearts are divided. It does not surprise Him that we follow after things that we want to fill these holes. Thing is our "fillers" are like filling a pot hole with sand. Life happens, we feel alone and are hurting and eventually the sand washes away and the hole is still there.
So when this hole is in my chest and I am not sure how I am going to fill it.. how unfair do you think it is to ask my husband to be big enough to fill it? He's not GOD big.
And then there are my friends... is it fair to ask them to fill a hole that only God can fill? They don't have enough time to fill my God-sized hole. They are too busy trying to be moms and daughters and wives and... fill their own God- sized holes. They can not fill mine!
Hosea 6: 3 says, "Let us acknowledge the Lord; let us press on to acknowledge Him. As surely as the sun rises, He will appear; "
We have to come to the realization that we are putting things in front of God and that we are not allowing Him to be sufficient for us. We are not pressing on to acknowledge Him through out the day and so that hole just grows and grows and grows.
As a believer in Christ that is a very hard statement for me to make. The fact that I am allowing myself to say, "YES! I love Jesus and He is my everything!" and yet not living my life COMPLETELY filled by Him is hypocrisy. I have allowed family, friends and being busy to come between me and God, at times, and I sometimes wake up feeling so empty that I can hardly stand it!
Micah 7:5-7 says," Do not trust a neighbor; put no confidence in a friend. Even with her who lies in your embrace be careful of your words. For a son dishonors his father, a daughter rises up against her mother, a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law- a man's enemies are members of his own household. But as for me, I watch in hope for the Lord, I wait for God my Savior; My God will hear me."
I don't feel that I can't talk to my husband and my family isn't my enemy, but we are ALL human and we do let one another down.
Only God- The PERFECT LAMB Himself is the one who can truly hear our thoughts and lives without condemnation. He- THE OMNIPRESENT FATHER is the only one who knows our struggles and can give us true and lasting solutions. He-OUR JEHOVAH GOD is the only one who loves us enough to truly give Himself for us and COME to fill our hearts completely.
His covenants with us are true and sure. We can trust them fully. He has never left us alone and He has proven Himself faithful throughout the history of the ages.
He has restored me over and over again. He has healed my brokenness. He has calmed my fears. He has rescued me.
He wants to give me an "undivided heart" and a "new spirit!"
It is my heart's desire to live what I truly believe. I do believe and know that Christ came for me. He has saved me from eternal damnation in hell, but he has also saved me from the holes of this life. All I have to do is be faithful in my relationship with Him to ALLOW Him to fill me (and my GOD SIZED HOLE) and live life to the fullest in His redemptive power!
In Christ alone... I place my trust... and find my glory in the power of the cross.. in every victory... let it be said of me... my source of strength... my source of hope... is Christ alone!