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Saturday, May 31, 2008

Honest Feelings

Last night I visited a sweet family at the funeral home. You know, sometimes it's just not fair when we lose someone.

I know that God is perfect. His timing is perfect. His will is perfect. Sometimes it just does not FEEL very perfect.

My daughter is turning 7 tomorrow. It felt so strange for me to "run by the funeral home" and then "run to Target for a few last minute birthday things." It's not really fair that life just goes on that way when someone is hurting so bad.

I walked out and left this family hurting and sad. They will never return to "normal" because their dad and husband is gone. There will be a new normal, but it will never be the same.
I came home to my husband and daughter, but they can't do that. Today they will bury their loved one. It just didn't feel very fair that I got to come home to normalcy. They didn't.

I know that in God's infinite wisdom that He knows best. He is going to hold this family. He will provide and He will sustain them. He promises us that He will never leave us and that He holds all things together. We can claim His promises for us, and we should! As His children He tells us to come boldly before Him and we can be honest as we tell Him our hurts.

It's just that it hurts really, really bad.

"For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 2 Corinthians 4:18b

1 comments:

Valarie said...

"To everything there is a season..." sweet friend!! Believe me, I understand how you feel. When my dad died, I had a little melt down in Shoney's after the waitress got a little huffy because I couldn't decide on what I wanted. I started SHOUTING at her that my dad had just died and all I wanted was a STUPID DIET COKE!!!!!! Oh yes I did!!!!! Poor thing!!! hahaha

God knows. God cares and I thank Him for giving you such a tender heart that is hurting for your friends. He made you that way for a reason girl!

I love you and Happy Baby girl's birthday for you too, Momma!!
V